Hey

Hey you,

Yeah, you. 

How could I be so sure that it's you?

Cause not many people read this blog anyway.

It's 00:55 AM, and we had just finished talking through the phone. It has been an hour or so, listening to your voice. 

We talked about the randomest things, yeah, like...how fast I peed? Made-up imaginary scenarios of how I'll find a new guy and you'll end up all depressed just to find out he's my best friend and actually gay? How hilarious.

Our random rants about Naruto? Besides music, I think that's the other best thing you really understand about. And it's cute. Hearing your voice late at night made me miss you even more. I can't help thinking what would I do if you were beside me.

But beneath those absurd and random conversations, I see how you are insecure inside, how you get a bit jealous even though you won't admit it...and how you tried to subtle-ly comfort me after saying hurtful things jokingly..(in purpose)

Well, Josh,

I have affection towards him. In a friendly matter. No way you're getting replaced by him. No. Way. (And im pretty sure he's gonna turn out gay?)

I am a flirt, BUT I'LL  NEVER DITCH YOU FOR ANYONE ELSE.

(Unless you did something unforgiveable..then...)

And, you are the cutest most handsome man in the world to me. Not him, not anyone, but you only.

(For now.)

((Full of doubts, eh, lex?))

And there's absolutely no need to worry about him, or anyone...
 I have my own insecurities too.

I am aware that i'm not the prettiest, compared to her. Or the calmest. Or at least a teeny-tiny bit normal. Nope, im weird. Im different. I admit it. I can't help but compare. Im nothing, compared to her. Oh dear.

Then again you have comforted me. You said you loved me for who I am already.

Thank you.

And I love hearing your drowsy-sleepy voice wish me a good night, whispering how much you loved me.

Thank you.

In which I answered in giggles...but I can assure you that my love is no joke. What more can I ask of you? You're near perfect. I'm so sorry you gotta end up with me. Ugh. Haha. Dammit.

I guess we both got our insecurities...Lets keep it that way.

Let's not change.

Eh? :)

-Alex